alex.
twenty two.
25MARCH85.
SINGAPORE INSTITUTE OF MANAGEMENT.
LOVE SPORTS.
WISHLIST.
laptop
printer
Happiness
back pack
good grades
trip to Taiwan
basketball shoe
new sound system
a good badminton racket
full LIGAMENT recovery
creative mp3 - at least 8GB
HAD BEEN.
June 2004
July 2004
August 2004
September 2004
October 2004
January 2005
March 2005
August 2006
September 2006
November 2006
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
October 2007
July 2008
September 2008
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
June 2009
October 2009
THANKS FOR BEING HERE.
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Ah Ron
Shevon
DA JIE!
YAK YAK.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Hi Everyone, i am back here to blog.. suddenly wanna blog cause got a lot of sin shi and i dun know how to say it out.. maybe as away, i find writing it out to be much much better..
Had receive the letter from SIM tat i was accepted into their business management course. As i have a business diploma from ngee ann poly, i was granted admission into yr 2 of the course. this mean i only have to study for 2 yr and i will get my degree.. By rite i should be so farking happy.. know y? cause my result in poly really suck to the core.. till today i still dun understand y.. i did study for test and exams but why did i did so lousy in poly.. yes i was very involved in track and field.. yeah i was playing bball, yeah i was goint out with fren.. BUT i really got study lo.. maybe not hard enuf.. i still blamed myself. i had work so hard in my o levels to get the result i want to get into ngee ann business studies yet i sort of let myself down with my result... haiz.. But i founs myself not really being very very happy abt getting into SIM.. i instead hated myself.. why did i do so poorly in poly.. tat i cant even get into SMU, NTU, NUS?? i am such a loser in everything.. i ask for it i guessed.. all my fren is like easing into nus, ntu, smu... while i am jus suppose to be damn glad cause i was accepted into SIM...
Sch fee in SIM is high..very high.. i have to find 21k to study.. and SIM cannot use CPF, so i am suppose to get a bank loan. my parent income is not tat high at all, and we the bank would not really allow us to borrow much. all these had create tension in my family. my parent is asking mi not to worry all these but i know they are feeling terrible that they cant even pay for my sch fee and had to relied on loans.. this make mi hate myself more.. cause if i had got into SMU, NTU or NUS den they could use their CPF which is more den enuf for my sch fee.. now instead we have to save and scrimp jus to ensure i can reapy the loan and have enuf for the household use.
I had alway plan for the worse case scenario, or rather the only scenario where i would get into SIM. i had swear to myself and god that should i had a chance to get into a uni i would strive my very best to get good grades. i had alway been in the jus do well can already mentality but not i am gonna say i wanna aim for the top 5 % in uni.. not easy but i shall try. i had alway know tat i sure have to work to support my studies but not i still have to fins a way to ensure i can start sch in july.. since i ORD only in sep... haiz.. more diplomatic work to be done with my boss...
Jus an update on my leg.. i have partially torn my ligament. 10 week out of action.. but i guess i will try to exercise a bit.. not looking well at all my face.. however my leg is really still in pain man.. i think no 1 think it is serious cause i am like wearing army boot in camp, walking ard all the time, wearing shoes when i go out, trying to walk properly... i do all these in pain maybe tat y ppl dun understand actually how painful it is sometimes.. and bcoz mi being mi, alway smiling and all, who will know how painful it is.. i can still rem tat day at camp where i was standing from morning 9am to evening 730om... my leg really cannot take it lo.. in army boot somemore can.. i am quite worried abt my leg, but tat might not be on the top of my worries bahz..
51 more day... till i will lose a frenship. i got nth more to say just that this is not my choice. i am sad to lose the frenship, NTH MORE.
Back of his mind, there was unrest
Deep in his heart, a falling quest
Every day, a harder test
For her, she would never guess
She was already, an uninvited guest
Into his heart, she has
Inflict upon, the greatest conquest
Reconcile, they might have
But the feeling remain unchanged
Love from the guy, nonchalance from the girl
Make loving too painful
One day. The guy decide
Let today be the day
That we shall let fate decide
If friendship alone,
Is enough for them to walk side by side
Even as the guy had decide,
Deep in his heart he knows
If there was only 1 person he has to remember for the rest of his life
That person would be the girl here
The girl that left the biggest scar,
Yet also the girl who left the biggest smile on his face
Love is a strange strange thing
The more u love, the more u hurt
The more u hurt, the more u love
When one love too deep,
One will easily get drunk in the wine of love
When 1 hate too long
One will be unable to repair his broken heart
The line between love and hate is so thin that it is scary
The guy love for the girl is so deep that he is so afraid that he would
Cross that line
Yet he never did.
He never crosses over to hate even though he was so close to crossing it so
Many times
The longest distance between 2 people is when the person is just standing
Beside u and yet u can’t tell her how u feel
For this guy.. He is experiencing this distance every single day
He finally realised
That the person he loves so deeply, no longer exist in this world
The day she walks away...
He always stands at 1 side, just behind that pillar
Silently and sincerely protecting her, caring for her
Yet never want her to know that
Noble or stupid he never wants to know
Cause he only want the best for her..
Alexelion MisSeD yOu @ 11:08 PM
